Tuesday, 22 July 2014

I'm in Love!!

So, every time my womb feels empty, I fill it with something needing love. Like a guinea pig, and then a cat, and then a hedgehog, and then a puppy, and then another puppy, and then a kitten I found in a tree, and then 6 guppies and two mollies and then a Leopard Gecko.

Meet Turbo. Officially the coolest member of this family. At first, I just wanted to give him a home because he needed one. I've never had a reptile - or anything without fur - before, and I wasn't sure about him. I figured he'd sit in his terrarium and chill most of the time, probably be super easy to raise. I fully intended that one day, when Hubby has his man-cave, he'd become a permanent fixture there and I wouldn't worry about him.

But then, he started to blossom. Every time I was doing something in the vicinity of him, I'd look over and see this.

Hey Mom. (Yes I consider myself my pets Mom. Don't judge!)
 And if I was in his terrarium moving something around or checking something, I'd see this:

Whatcha doin'?

And then, sometimes, I'd look over and see this:

Nothing to see here....just, uh, feeling the cool tank on my belly. I'm not stuck....I swear.

And so much more that I didn't get pics of. You guys - this guy is awesome! He's so fun...he's always up to something and he's sooooo curious. He wants to see everything we do, all the time. And when he comes out of his tank? Hah....you're going to have to get the jaws of life to get him back in there because he loves to chill out with his peeps. He actually clambers up the tank wall trying to get to us whenever we're near his tank, because he just wants to be held. It's the coolest thing....I'd expect that of a dog, but not a lizard!

And he loves a good chin scratch. I swear, he even squints his eyes when you do it. SO cute! Who knew a reptile would have so much character? I will try to get a pic of this, because it's awesome.

Right now he's chilling out on my shoulder while I type this, because I couldn't pry his little feet off my finger when I was trying to put him back in. And I may, or may not, have been to much of a wimp to force him...I mean, he just wants love. Who doesn't? How can I say no to that?

Seriously, I'm falling in love with this little guy. He's so strange and interesting and fun and so gentle....he hasn't tried to nip or bite at all - and let's be honest, you'd except something little that's being man handled to have a bit of a nip to tell you that you're holding him wrong. But not this guy, he just chills out and licks his eye ball.

Licks his eyeball. Cutest. Thing. Ever.

Not Turbo, but this is what is looks like. Source
 AND we also got a new fish tank. It's Hubbys dream tank, and it turned out super cool. Each of our nephews selected a small item for the tank, the starfish was Big Boy, the rock with the plants was Middle Boy and the Nemo and anemone was Little Boy. Makes me smile every time I see it!

It's huge and takes up half of our huge bathroom counter - but it's really cool and I love having fish. They're fun to watch.
And, completely unrelated, it's CD34 and nothing. Hm. Can't decide whether to test or wait it out. I hate testing, because it's always disappointing, so I almost think waiting anxiously is better than the disappointment of the test. Oi. Tough call.

What's the coolest pet you've ever had?

Happy ICLW and WELCOME to new and old friends! Thanks for stopping by!

Friday, 11 July 2014

Back in the saddle

I'm back in the TTC saddle ladies! And it feels goooooooood.

I've started seeing a fantastic Doctor...and am so excited about our time with her. I really think she is going to be great for us!

We're going to try 6 natural cycles. If I don't ovulate, or we can't work out timed sex, then we're not counting those months...we're only counting the months I ovulate and we actually have sex in the right time period. We're currently on CD22 of cycle 1. I've been tracking my last four cycles, and my results are:
  1. 35 Days – O on CD22
  2. 20 Days – No O
  3. 15 Days – No O
  4. Currently on CD22, O on CD17

My Doctor thinks the first three cycles were my body regulating itself, and so the successful month this month is a good sign. My progesterone levels have been good. My testosterone levels are in the normal range, which is really good for someone with PCOS. My ovary has been looking great. Things aren't looking all that bad!

My Doctor is hopeful that I will have a completely different experience than before because my health has changed so much. I've lost weight (and am still losing), I'm healthier, I eat better and work out. Hubby has also lost weight and is healthier. Our stress levels are wwaaayyy down and we're more settled which helps our stress levels too. The 6 natural cycles are a preliminary thing to see how I do. If I don't get pregnant, but it's hopeful, I can chose to continue with natural cycles. If I don't want to, we've agreed to do 6 assisted cycles (Cl.omid or Metf.ormin or Fem.ara) and then consider IUI. My Doctor really thinks we won't get past Clo.mid. I hope she's right.

The advantage we have is our age – I'm 27 so although I'd like to have a baby soon, if it doesn't happen right away I'm not panicking. If I give it until I'm 29 and I'm still not a mama, then we will move on to Adoption. Hopefully, we'll be successful.

Realistically, I'm not expecting to get pregnant this year. Sure I hope I will get pregnant, but I've done this all before and I know how unrealistic that is for someone with known fertility issues. I do, however, hope to find myself expecting next year. The timing would be ideal because we will have bought our house by then, so we'll have somewhere stable to bring baby home to. I also hope to be down another 40 lbs by then...the better my health is, the healthier a pregnancy will be! I'm not dieting, so it wouldn't be harmful to continue this through a pregnancy – I'm just introducing healthy habits in an effort to crowd out the bad ones. Like insisting on 7 vegetable servings every day. I'm allowed to have junk, but by the time I've eaten all 7 veggie servings there isn't any room for junk. It's really working and it's helping me to make permanent habits out of these good choices, and it's pushing out the bad choices. I really hope my hard work pays off, and we find ourselves parenting by the end of 2015.

So I guess that's it for an infertility update...but I figured it was time as it's been quite a while since I said anything at all about it! I just needed time to get settled, sort out our feelings on this, and find a good Doctor that we wanted to work with. Now that all of those things are in place, we can't wait to bring home a little baby V to our house! Come on ovary, do your thang!